~Finding Gold In The Shadow~ Posted by Sally on August 27, 1999 at 07:51:11:
Finding Gold In the Shadow~
And you thought I was so bad, so negative, so scary... But you're
starting to see that I have been your ally all along. The guardian of
the treasures you have hidden along the way.
A little girl who, a long time ago, knew how to be happy. I have kept
her warm and safe until you were ready to take her back home.
A little girl with a deep loving nature, who longed to spread love
around but who didn't know where to plant the seeds; everyone was so
busy surviving.
A little girl, an artist, who thought she had better hide because she
wasn't meeting her parents' expectations; who didn't know she'd better
follow her dreams.
I am the keeper of the courage you found to look into yourself and to
find shadow in the light and light in the shadow.
The keeper of your gifts, the keeper of your integrity.
I am the angry voice who cannot stand to see you compromising yourself
and desperately trying to please others; forgetting your dreams, your
visions.
I am the one longing for balance, for the whole to be considered. I am
the other side of things, the other half. Without me, you can only hope
to be half of who you are. Within me, you can reconcile opposites and
conceive of a wiser, better-fitting solution that brings unity rather
than opposition.
I am the keeper of your truth.
I am the no-nonsense voice in you, the one that you can't fool. The
voice who lets you know you're not being real.
The voice that needs to say she was bored or hurt or angry when you
acted out of a sense of duty, and not out of authenticity.
I am the keeper of your honesty.
I am the one bored to death, screaming you can do better than that
when you stay in your empty, meaningless, well-paying job.
I am the one who will do this unacceptable thing that will get you
fired from the empty job so you can start addressing more pressing
matters, matters of truth, matters of the heart.
I am the keeper of the secrets you keep from yourself, the ones you
don't dare look at for fear that they might hurt too much; for fear
that they might not sound socially acceptable; for fear that you might
see beyond a shadow of a doubt that you need to make changes.
I am the keeper of your strength; the strength that you found to trade
your victim eyes for clarity and vision.
I was the keeper of your self-confidence while you were so busy
doubting yourself. The keeper of your self-worth when you were saying
you weren't worth it, you didn't deserve it.
I am the voice screaming of injustice when you're not living up to
your potential, when you don't take care of yourself and you envy
someone else who does; when you waste your time and find yourself
wanting to be somebody else instead of creating your own ideal reality.
And I am the one hurting when I see you sabotaging your chances of
success.
And I am the bitter one when I hear you belittling yourself.
And I am the angry one when I see you not honouring yourself.
I am the voice you bear when you have compromised yourself.
I am your potential.
I am your shadow.
- Mireille
I "like" this ~ Sally;-)
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